Take My Breath Away

Me and Tommy at his formal. Cute huh? Here's our SLU 72 Video...it's called Law and Order SLU.



Here's a really funny Saturday Night Live Skit I saw. I love Shia!



Anyway, I've been pretty blue lately. The pictures of me and Tommy really helped cheer me up though. Can't wait til everyone gets back in town.

Geese

so it's been forever since i've posted b/c blogger has been a bitch for me. couldn't even comment for a while. but i'm back with a vengeance. well, not really, but it sounded good. so... don't know about the rest of you, but i'll only be in town from may 9-20 and then maybe for a week or 2 in august. this means that most likely i will only get to have one party so all you bitches need to be there. i would like some ideas on dates for it too. ummm.....yeah. thats all.


i lied. just thought i'd explain the title. i've come to this conclusion about men:
men are like geese (or at least all the geese i've ever met). when you try to get near the geese to feed them, they run away and won't accept the food from your hands. but when you're standing there minding your own business eating a sandwich (or whatever tickles your fancy), they flock to you like you're the only source of food left in the entire fucking world. well i don't wanna feed the damn geese right now.

just apply that to men and dating and you'll understand how my sophomore year has gone. stupid fuckers

Rubber Ducky, you're the one...

So Cincinnati is weird and has this thing called the Rubber Duck Regatta. Basically, they get people to buy little rubber ducks for like $5 or something and then on the day after labor day, they dump them into the ohio river from a bridge called the purple people bridge (yes, that is its name. its purple and its a pedestrian bridge). Then they set a trap a little farther down the river. The owner of the first duckie into the trap gets a car, the next four get $1000. All the rest of the money goes to the local foodbanks. So anyway - before all of that happens, they auction off "celebrity ducks". They are bigger ducks that are signed by celebrities and then auctioned off. So this year they asked the sva (art club at xavier) to decorate them.My first ducky (there are 60 total) is signed my Giada de Laurentius. Yup. That's right. I get to make a rubber duck look like Giada. hahaha.
here is the before:


and after:

She is wearing a ribbon trimmed apron and is holding a spoon and bowl filled with yummy pasta with glitter sauce. Delicious!

Summer is on its way

as i was watching one of my favorite childhood movies, the sandlot, i was reminded of how awesome summer used to be. dont get me wrong, i have fun now but compared to the days when we didnt have to work or really do anything, its not as great. i was in this awesome daydream today in class having to do with past summers- catching fireflies, playing jailbreak, not wearing shoes if i can help it for 3 months, chasing after the ice cream man, playing army, swimming in my grams' pool, school yard hockey, riding my bike, umbros, rollerblades, melting fudgsicle running down my arm, getting up only to go out and play and falling asleep completely drained. sure i do some of those things now, but you know what i mean. wow, remembering all that was great :D

this link started that train of though
http://www.nataliedee.com/042607/the-ol-squish-n-lick.jpg

Tampons.

i really wanted to share this story i have about tampons. laura's post inspired me. the first time i got the courage to finally be serious about trying tampons, i used a supersized one because that's all i could find in my sis's room. so i tried it, but it was huge, and so it hurt like a BIATCH and then---it got stuck. halfway in. and it would NOT come out. so i finally called my other sis sobbing because it hurt so bad because i was having such a light period, and i could not figure out how to get it out without destroying my vag. so, finally, about an hour or two after it went in, i just ripped it out. it felt like i was birthing a very small child made of 100% cotton. FUCK FATTY TAMPONS.

Whoa

I am feeling very grown up at the moment.
My dad emailed me last night with some ideas for a summer job/internship. So, I decided to email both of them. I had to write professional sounding emails to both of them. SCARY! AH!
Then, there was an email in my inbox about a student business that is getting started that needs graphic designers and blah blah blah. So, there goes another official sounding email.
AHH!!
I dunno, it felt cool being all professional and I am really excited about possibly getting a job that actually pertains to my major instead of filing paperwork, but at the same time it scares me shitless.
So yeah, just needed to spout about freaking out momentarily. Phew. Too much being grown up in too small of a span of time. Maybe I should go play some videogames.... hehe :-D

TODAS LAS CHICAS VINEN A LA FIESTA DE CINCO DE MAYO

so.... if any of you chicas are going to be in town May 5th...i think you guys should come visit me at work...my Harley dealership is throwing a Women's Only Garage Party...and its a whole lot of fun usually...we kick all the gross biker guys out of the store and we have a huge party...theres a bunch of food (tacos this time i think) and drinks (margaritas...and i'd be surprised if they carded) and music and sales on clothes (which just tell me what you want and i'll see if i can get it cheaper than that) and fun people....you can all meet my bitch of a boss and some of the goofy people i work with...plus you can hang out with me...we give away some free shit to everyone and raffle off a cruise to mexico and a free beginners riding class...i think i'm going to have to give a talk or something about some aspect of riding so that'll be interesting...(but i think that only because not many of us are working it and they are over-planning for the amount of staff that will be available)...but yea.... May 5th at like 6pm at Gateway Harley in south county...i'm pretty sure its free...but if you are in town you should definitely come hang out...mmmmk?

WARNING: Males...This Is About Periods...Read At Your Own Discretion

I am so pissed off right now. Life is so fucking unfair. I wish I could write what happened to me but I can't cause it's too personal. I'll just say this much. I fucking HATE how unfair nature is to women. Over 70% of women do not orgasm during sex (the other 30% probably had some sort of help), guys get off nearly every single time, usually (at least in my experiences) the guys just want to lay down and then the girl just has to sit around unsatisfied or satisfy herself, and then on top of it if something goes wrong the girl has to deal with it. Girls spend a week every month in pain dealing with one of the most embarassing things (I've heard guys try to compare getting boners in public as being as embarassing as getting blood on your pants when your period starts unexpectedly, but let me say this...boners can be hidden and getting a boner is not considered as bad as periods...but if your period starts unexpectedly you are stuck wearing that outfit until you can get an opportunity to change and everyone thinks periods are gross, which they are, but that just makes it even more embarrassing).

Every month I have to deal with horrible horrible cramps, extreme nausea without ever being able to relieve it by actually puking, bloating, extreme uncomfortability, paranoia that you might have accidentally gotten something on your clothes, etc. Then someone else goes and fucks something up right after your period ends, and you have to start it all over again. Has anyone else here had to deal with a three week long period due to stress doing something to benefit someone else, who is pretty unappreciative of all you went through (even the long fucking period) just for their benefit? Has anyone else had to have two extremely painful and heavy periods in a row for someone else's pleasure. Why can't guys be the ones who spend a fourth of their life dealing with periods? Why can't it at least be equal? I would not mind having periods if I knew that guys had something physically similar to a period. That way it would at least be fair and equal. But no, everything is so unfair and so unequal and that, more than anything, pisses me off.

So am I wrong for at least expecting a guy to treat me extra nicely while I am sick and in pain, especially in instances where it could be caused by an error the guy made? I don't think I am. But lots of guys do. I swear if guys could just experience one period maybe they would understand and be nicer to us girls when we get cranky. Guys always say girls can control if they PMS or not. Well let me ask you this. How can you control the level of serotonin in your body? Before periods, estrogen levels go down which decreases serotonin levels and they have an effect on emotions. Would you tell someone with depression that they can control their emotions? Then why in God's name would you tell a pmsing woman that she can control it and doesn't have to feel/act that way. But let me clarify, that does NOT mean that anytime a girl feels an emotion, it is because of her period. So don't make that assumption, or I might slap you.

And how about childbirth? What do guys have to do for childbirth? Oh yeah, they only have to orgasm. Wow, that must be really hard for you guys. What do girls have to do? Well I don't feel like listing everything, so the most important ones are morning sickness (which contrary to it's name often happens all day and not just in the morning), the pain of carrying around a baby in your stomach, the pain of childbirth, the estrogen levels messing with your emotions, and on top of it women still have to go about their lives as usual. No one considers periods a valid sick excuse, even though often times the sickest I ever feel is when I am on my period.

Man sorry for that long rant, I think I have been ranting a lot lately. But come on, wouldn't you all be pissed if you have had fevers, nausea, cramps, back pain, tender boobs, mood swings, headaches, and blood coming out of you for two weeks? Right when you think you are finally finished and you can leave the hell that is a period, you get sucked right back in and it's not even your fault!!!!!!!!!!! Well, if you guys wouldn't be pissed about that, I certainly am.

but it's a nice weekend here in tulsa...

spending the weekend in bed with a 102 fever complete with vomiting, nausea, etc. is no fun! :-(

My semester in a nutshell

An adorable photo of me and the love of my life

We all love nuts, don't we?

Let's seeeeeee. I feel like this semester has gone by very slowly, but the year has gone by very quickly. I can't believe I'm practically half way done with college. Freakin' scary.

Anyway, my course load this semester has been fairly easy. Most of my stress comes from extra-curricular activities. I haven't seen any real fires this semester, but I'm still having fun on the fire department. I'm not in any shows at St. Mike's, but a friend of mind gave this guy my phone number when he was looking for people for his musical, An Office Collage, so I've got basically the main role in that. It's pretty exciting cause I've always just been in the chorus. I'm hoping it will give me a confidence boost for auditions for St. Mike's musical next spring, Closer Than Ever, because in general I get extremely nervous when singing at auditions and basically suck major hairy balls. It's kind of frustrating because we open next Thursday and people are still struggling with lines. We tried to do a full run tonight, skipped about 3 pages, tried to go back, and the director had to stop us cause we were digging ourselves deeper and deeper in a hole (I, of course, was perfect, you know me). And there's this self-centered bitch in the show who is a super diva. She complains about everything and can't take direction. On the bright side, the guy who plays my husband in the show is pretty cute, and he's 29. Ow ow.

Speaking of good-looking guys, Mike and I are getting on famously. May 17th is our one year anniversary, making this about 6 times longer than my longest relationship so far. So. Woot. I got to go meet him and his friends in New Orleans for spring break (I think I told you guys that). We had a wonderful time, despite a little friend drama. For somebody who doesn't really like theatre that much, almost all of his closest friends are theatre dorks (including me, of course). He loves film, though. He's got himself hired out to film some weddings this summer; he even started a business with his friend Mike from Tulsa. So he'll pretty much be making upwards of $50/hour for the gigs, which is rather excellent.

And speaking of St. Louis, one of my bestest friends from school here is planning to move to St. Louis after graduation because her boyfriend (who she plans to marry at this point) is going to the Lutheran (I think) seminary there. I will probably share her with you. I didn't think I could ever say this, but she may be even whackier than you guys.

Also, I am studying and doing an internship in Paris next semester.

Piss your pants, go ahead, I did.

Maybe I'm just way behind the times, but I recently discovered these "Deep Thoughts" by Jack Handey and had to share them with all of you. End of the semester, things are getting stressful, we all need a good laugh. Keep the funnies comin'.

http://www.geocities.com/Wellesley/4220/deepthoughts.html

A Girl Like Me

This morning I stumbled on this video called a girl like me. Here is the link so you can watch it. http://www.understandingrace.org/lived/video/index.html

This video sort of bugged me. Let me start this post of by saying that I am not trying to say there is not any racism today. I know there is still racism I just don't think it is to the extent the media portrays it and I know there are more anti white crimes performed by blacks then there are anti black crimes performed by whites. Ok back to the video.

I was watching the video and the girls were all describing stereotypes. I don't think black females are the only ones with the problems they were describing. Many of the girls talked about being uncomfortable with their skin color and hair. I feel like most girls are uncomfortable with their skin color and hair. These are the problems that females face as a whole, the pressures to fit in by looking "pretty" according to our societies standards. It's not just pressure on black girls. The girls talk about how it is considered bad to have dark skin, but for white girls it is considered bad to be pale and girls go tanning all the time. The girls also talk about having to fix their hair all the time. I never go out unless I fix my hair somehow. The other day Tom told me I am the only girl he knows that has to do something to my hair before I feel ok leaving. But that's how tons of girls are because there is a ton of pressure on all females to have great hair. For the appearance portion of the video I feel it is more a woman's issue than a racial issue.

As for the girl talking about how she doesn't know much about her cultural background, she's not the only one. Not many Americans really do no much about their cultural backgrounds. Most of us are mutts. I know I am German but I don't know anything about German culture or anything. For the girl to act like only black people have a problem identifying with their roots sorta pisses me off. I've always wanted to know more about my ancesters and my family has been trying to find out lots of information but it's hard to find out that kind of stuff and so I really only know that I am German and Irish and Czech.

The next portion was showing kids with two dolls in front of them - a white one and a black one. The kids were asked to chose which doll is better. This section seemed very staged to me. The kids kept looking up for direction and a few looked confused. In my Cultural Diversity class we talked about how kids cannot identify with racial differences until about the age of 5 or 6. These kids looked 3 and 4 to me. That is another reason I think this might have been staged. At least a little. It is true that for a long time only white dolls were available. Children may just be used to having white dolls to play with. If I had seen this recently scientifically tested and it had gotten the same results I would have believed it. I know it had been tested by Dr. Kenneth Clark but I think that test is extremely outdated and now more and more diverse dolls are available. When the test was conducted by Dr. Clark there were probably no black dolls and kids just chose what they were used too.

There is some truth throughout this video. However, it really bugs me when people take problems they have and blame it on being in a minority. The whole "I feel pressured to have good hair and skin to fit in" crap is not because they are black, again it's because the are girls and women have tremendous pressures to deal with in today's society. Women's issues are never addressed whereas racial issues are talked about all the time. It drives me crazy. In my Cultural Diversity class nearly all the males were saying that feminists only attack men and are antimen and tons of other shit that really made me angry. It made me even angrier because I used to share those thoughts but when I finally decided to pay attention I realized how many issues there are for women to face that men will never have to worry about. These are the same guys who spoke out against racism and supported the blacks in videos we watched who were standing up for their rights. When will these guys treat sexism the same way they treat racism? When will they support women who stand up for their rights? We are fortunate to have mostly guy friends who understand and who realize the problems (you guys rock). It wasn't until I was out of the group of great guys we know that I realized how many guys I meet who do not give two shits about women's rights.

Anyway, that was my ranting post for the day.

New Topic?

Hey chicoritas! Hows it goin? I just thought it was time for a new post since the old one is getting kinda debated out....
So as I sit here and try to think of a new topic the only thing that comes to mind is summer. I was going to say something about end of the year exams and shit, but I am tired of talking about those with all my schoolmates - so summer it is!
I am getting home probably on May 11th - or at least that is when they kick me out of my apartment.
I am gonna be in Rome for three weeks (May 26th to June 17th) for an art class. That's right - an art class in Rome. How kickass is that? I am pretty damn excited!!! Europe here I come!!!
Other than that I am going to be hanging out in stl (for the most part) and helping my sis get ready for her wedding. I may possibly be also getting a job, if I can find one. I am excited cause I can't wait to see you guys and I really really need a break from school. :-D
What are all of you guys doing this summer?
When are people gonna be home??
Any ideas of things we just HAVE to do this summer? hehe :-D

VT

please keep everyone involved with the Virginia Tech incident in your thoughts.
i have family at that school so today has been pretty rough.

Cute And Sad At The Same Time

There are these two ducks that are always together. They are boy and girl and they are always together. Me and Tom think they are boyfriend and girlfriend and we think they are adorable.

So today me and Tom were walking back from eating lunch and we noticed a commotion between three male ducks. We thought they were fighting over worms but it turns out they were all humping the girlfriend duck and she was desperately trying to get away. Then her boyfriend finally was able to beat up the other two ducks who were like raping her and she was like hiding behind him while the other boy ducks walked away.

I think the ducks are cute because they like each other and are always together and because the boyfriend saved the girlfriend from the other boy ducks. But it really upset me because basically in nature female animals get raped. I was watching a discovery channel show about like how for most females sex is extremely painful and I remember in particular they were talking about how female hippos have so much pain while having sex and it lasts a really long time and the female has to occasionally not only pull herself up to the top of the water to breathe but she also has to pull the male up so he can breathe too. It's like the guy just gets to have sex it feels good for him and then he can go do it to another girl but the girls have to deal with all the hardships like having painful sex and having to raise the babies and stuff. I think that's sad for the poor girl hippos and the poor girl duck. At least this duck had a sweet boyfriend duck who saved her.

CALLING ALL SAINT LOUIS PEOPLE

For anyone in Saint Louis, they are showing SLU 72 movies. They let the audience vote for what movie they like the best and everyone should come and vote for our movie. Just post a comment if you will be in Saint Louis on Tuesday.

this will be...an everlasting love!

the title is because that song is in my head. so, sorry, everyone, that i saw basically no one this weekend. it was a really short break, and i had a ton of homework, and i really wanted some time with the fam. but hey, summer is approaching quickly, so i'll see ya'll then. ciao for now!

Watch These Videos - They are both great

I think that is hilarious. Me and Shelly watch it all the time. Speaking of Michelle, she is a Freshman at Ursuline now (I know Ursuline and Nerinx are rivals), but anyway at Ursuline she made the Varsity track team even though she is a Freshman and she has come in first in both of her meets. Isn't that awesome? First place in Varsity and she's a freshman. Anyway yeah Shapoopi!




Ok this is just fucking adorable. These two otters are holding hands it's so cute. Then the girl otter (I don't know if they are girls or boys but I like picturing the whiter one as the girl and the darker one as the boy) falls asleep and lets go of the boys hand. And the boy turns around and swims back to her and grabs her hand again. And then it looks like he kisses her on the hand. So fucking cute.




Snape: I can put a stopper in death.
Hermione: No you can't!




There are tons of other funny Potter Puppet Pals. Just search for it on YouTube.

Easter Weekend

Yeah so let's celebrate. Party at Amanda's, Saturday. BYOB. I think Jimmy has a ton of liquor left over from our spring break, so bring some money and I'm sure we can drink that if we all pitch in some moolah. Cheers.

HOLY FUCKING SHIT THIS IS CRAZY

Ok so you all know how I posted the letter my roomie wrote to me and the letter I wrote back? Well after I sent her the letter I didn't really see her much. Either she was out of the room when I was there or I was out of the room while she was there for the most part. So I didn't see her really for a little over a week after I sent the letter. Friday afternoon I went to my apartment and she was there and I packed up the stuff I would need to bring to Tom's house because I had to work early on Saturday and I didn't have enough gas to drive to my house and then to work (I work like two or three miles from Tom's house) so I just decided to go to Tom's house and spend the night there and drive to work the next morning. Well I was packing my stuff she was in the apartment the whole time and didn't say a word to me. She never says anything to me though unless she is bitching about something so I didn't think it was out of the ordinary. I left and went to Tom's house.

Anyway, on Saturday I had to give Tom a ride back to school for a meeting or something at like 7:30 pm. I dropped Tom off at the building his meeting was at and headed down to Tom's apartment to work on our SLU 72 beginning (it is so cool - just like Law and Order). As I am working I hear some guys walking in to the apartment which was kinda weird because I know Tom's roomie was in his room because I could hear him in there coughing from smoking so much. I was wondering who the guys were, but it was just Tom and his friends. They walk into the room looking for the green tub me and Tom used to sled down art hill with (pictures coming up!). So I told them the tub was in my apartment and we all went to walk down to my apartment to get them.

On the way there I apologized in advance cause my roomie hates when I bring people into the room. Then I remembered one of the guys with us had gone to Oakville highschool with her. We sorta talked about her, nothing bad just about how she got the highest grades in class. We get up to my apartment and it was really dark. I felt around for the lamp she kept in the room and it wasn't there. I was like "She must be sleeping" but I didn't really care so I turned on the overhead light. I looked around and noticed all her stuff was gone. SHE MOVED OUT. She left and didn't even tell me. Actually I don't even care that she didn't tell me because I am so happy she left. I have the whole apartment to myself and she has already paid for the remaining time. So I am not penalized at all or anything. The only bad thing about this is she took her tv with her. So I don't have a tv, but we have an extra tv at my house that I can probably bring down. Party at my apartment everyone!!!!!!!! Seriously, I have my own apartment. I am so excited.

Sorry for posting so much, but I am going to post again as soon as I get back to school cause I want everyone to see really pretty pictures I took. NO ROOMIE! YYYYYYEEEEEEEESSSSSS