sadness. frustration. stress. crazyness.

i think its sad that no one has posted in a few days...and yet i check several times a day...in case i missed anything...but i didn't...its like i check for mail...every time i pass my mail slot i'll check it...i could've just walked by and its 2am...nope...i check it again...its freakin rediculous...

so update on carolyn: bummed about not comin home to till the 28th but excited to be comin home at all...supposedly stressed out about exams but not really...they are all spread out and i don't really care about them...i know all the material so its just a matter of sitting down and taking the freakin tests...but stress is in the air...everyone here is crazy (maybe its cause i live in the honor's dorm)... 24 hour quiet hours...a serious problem...i'm not good at being quiet...xmas presents to buy...everyone has decided to make it twice as difficult by vowing to get everyone on our floor something...which is bullshit cause none of us have any money or time...

boys continue to blow...but in different ways....oh well...carolyn will get over it...boys are not important right now anyway...

hannah and i just cleaned our room...i'm aware its 1:30 am but you know what? i've gotten into the habit of not going to sleep before 2 or 3...and what better room mate bonding activity than cleaning before exams...neither of us give two shits about next week anyway..but we've already gotten several warnings about the number of profanities all over the walls and windows and doors and closets and lights and ceiling...not to mention the rediculous number of other rules we are constantly breaking...like the unconnected smoke detector, the offensive posters and drawings littering the walls, the trash can that is obliterated, shards covering the floor, the lack of a pathway to the window, a serious fire hazzard, like the candles, the incense, the cigar smoke aren't...the tape all over everything, my entire makeshift loft (constructed out of a stolen desk, my desk, my boxspring, a few sheets, and a pillow...keep in mind there are no bolts or fastening devices...just my weight to keep it in place...keep in mind i go under there to chill...keep in mind there is writing all over it...keep in mind it is in no way regulation), amoung other things...but oh well right? not a big deal...they are just going to have to ignore all that...in addition to all the shit on the radiator, the alcohol stains on the "carpet", the dip stain on the floor by the door (thanks a lot mike), and the overcrowded electrical sockets (if nerinx taught me anything it was how to wire a good daisy chain...thanks dw)....so there you go...i might not be back here next semester because i'm clearly a liability...

i miss ya guys a shitload and not happy about missing xmas with all you guys especially since i'll be spending it instead with a shitload of family i have never met...and some i see constantly now that basketball season has started.. thats kept me busy...go rams and all that jazz we're 6-1...my cuz (yea thats right the 4incher) is doin pretty good...and its always good to get free home made cookies from the gma...free dinner from the gpa...see the cousins...they can be fun sometimes...

so good times...good times in colorado...4 inches of snow and blinding cold...luckily classes are over and i can look forward to doing nothin with people out here and family out here...and then i shitload with all ya all back in stl...so until then...hasta luego...