i dreamed a dream

i had a dream that a lot of you guys were riding in a car but it got into a horrible accident and everyone died. i think it was my subconscious trying to tell me to get my head out of my ass, because until that night, i thought that i didn't miss home, that i didn't miss nerinx, or i didn't miss any of you. i haven't posted in a while, and i think it's because i believed that. i could claim that wellesley has consumed my life, with work, failing 2 classes, frisbee, senate, etc. but no, i was just denying the fact. i miss you guys. sometimes i feel so overwhelmed that i just need someone to hug. and not the wimpy ones i get around here. i want a carolyn hug or a sarah hug or a any marker splotches hug that squeezes me so tightly it feels like all my troubles go oozing out of me. i want someone to watch nerinx girls gone wild with me and i want to sing lotr the musical. i miss the gossip and trivial details of nerinx life. shit, i'm homesick, i guess.

it's not that i don't like wellesley. it's perfect. i have friends. i have great teachers. i have a boy. (oh yah- all girls' school what?) i have a rep and a future here. but it just makes me forget my past.

i hate college. and i love it.

wake me up when college ends.

see you all in december.